7 Letter Words

P-I-E-R-C-E-D

 

We'll start off with the cute stuff, lol. After years of wanting it done, I finally got my nose pierced!!! :) I could not love it more, and everyone says it suits me, which I agree with 100%, haha. 

 

D-I-V-O-R-C-E

I suppose that's the 7 letter word that will shock some people. I left my husband on Oct 30th. I haven't filed yet, but probably will in the next month or two. It's been hard, but I know it's right. It's not at ALL that he's a bad guy...he's actually one of the best men I've ever known. I'm just not in love with him any more. I haven't been for a while, and I've stopped trying to feel something I don't. We tried, we both did...but sometimes you just have to move on. I didn't want to look back when I'm 40 and WISH I would've left when I was 30...

C-O-U-R-A-G-E

I'll be honest, a few people have criticized me for my decisions. And yes, there was one decision in particular that I'm not proud of; I strayed from my marriage just before I left. I should have waited until after I left. But I didn't, and that's something that only I should have to live with. The thing is... a lot of people would have just STAYED. And CHEATED.
I left. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, but it was the right decision. From people who know me well, I've been told that I have more courage than a lot of other people in that same situation, because others wouldn't have been brave enough to leave. So I feel good about my decision in the end.

F-R-I-E-N-D-S

Throughout the last 7 weeks, I've had my fair share of "finding out who your true friends are" moments. I've lost plenty due to the above mentioned indiscretion. I lost two of my best friends and god-kids because they're my ex's family. I knew that would probably happen, but it hurts sometimes anyway. But honestly, more than grieving over lost friends, I've really been celebrating those who have rallied around me. My friends are amazing, and more like family than any family I've ever known. Except my sisters, obviously... I love you two more than life itself and you know it! But those of you reading this know you who are, and I can't thank you enough for sticking by me.

H-E-A-L-T-H-Y

So, let's get down to business: The last time I posted here was 9/17 and I weighed 345. Today, it's 12/24 and I weigh 324. So in just over 3 months, I've lost 21 lbs. It's funny how portion control just becomes a part of your life. Plus, with moving into my best friend's apartment, my routine has been CRAZY. :) But I've tried to keep my health in mind, and so far it's worked. Along with getting my body healthy, I just gotta keep my mind healthy and I'll be ok!

B-L-E-S-S-E-D

Throughout all of the struggles in the last few months, I've realized how truly blessed I am. Blessed to have a best friend who loves me enough to let me move in with her and her kids at the drop of a hat... Blessed to have a sister who is thrilled about me moving in with her in March... Blessed to finally have the opportunity to move back home to GA... Blessed that my future ex-husband is a good man, and has allowed this to be pretty civil so far... Blessed that he's letting me have my dog!...
I'm just blessed.
And I know it.
That's what's getting me through. <3

Motivational Monday - 9/17/12

Well! I sure can talk the talk, and I sure can inspire and motivate people....but I've had a rough time walking the walk lately.

On my "weigh-in's" page (link up top), the last weight recorded was 348 lbs on 5/19. *sigh* On 9/8, I weighed in at 347 as the "starting weight" for my new challenge. Guess I stalled out a bit, huh? Lost a whole pound in just under 4 months. I'm ashamed to even type that...

However, I'm now involved in two different challenges, one of which is an elimination challenge, and I'm really, REALLY competitive...so losing is NOT an option. Seriously, I'm right up there with Monica as far as needing to win, lol. Have you guys seen this episode?

My unofficial weight as of this morning was 345. Lost two pounds! I know that's not much, but it's a start. In the past 4 months, I've dislocated my hip joint, celebrated my 30th birthday, and gone on vacation. All in all, I guess I can't be too disappointed that I even maintained. But I am! I don't want to BE that person. I don't want to be stagnant in my weight loss. I want to accomplish things!!!

The one thing I'm MOST proud of is that I actually walked a 5k for the very first time on 9/11!!! (see pic above, lol) After I was done, I had the worst blisters on my feet under my toes, so I've had to let those heal, but I'll be going to the gym to do 1-2 miles Tues/Wed/Thurs of this week, and then me and Destinee are walking a 5k again this Sunday. Our ACTUAL Color Me Rad 5k is next Sat, 9/29! I'm so excited!!!

Anyway, I suppose that's it for now, but I haven't blogged in a WHILE, so I wanted to get back on track! :) I push myself more when I know people are watching, haha.

xoxo
Ali

Motivational Monday - 8/20/12

hahaha

So, being honest, I only went to the gym twice last week. That is NOT good enough. I've been getting things ready for vacation in 2 weeks, but I've also been using that as an excuse.

I've got to do better this week. I've got to find my motivation again... *sigh* What's YOUR motivation?

Motivational Monday - 8/6/12

The countdowns have started!

25 days until vacation, where we will need the endurance to walk miles and miles of downtown Atlanta streets.

54 days until Destinee and I do our 5k!!!

Could not be more excited for both! :)

I didn't wake up once and go to the gym BEFORE work last week. Ahhhh, my intentions were good, but I just like my sleep too much. There, I've said it.

But for some reason, I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. So at 5:15, I made the decision to get up and go to the gym! ***pats myself on back*** I actually GOT to the gym at 5:40am. I'm so proud of myself!!!

I'll definitely be going to bed (and spending the rest of my day) with a little extra satisfaction.

I did 1.5 miles in 33 mins, which isn't "fast" by any means, but it burned off 354 cals so I'm totally cool with that!!!

Motivational Monday - 7/30/12

So another week has gone by. Me and Mike went to the gym on Thursday and Friday of last week, and I haven't been back since. But I'm GOING tomorrow!!!

It's so hard!!! Getting up at 5am to go to the gym, when I have to leave my house by 7am, work from 8-6, then get back home at 7pm. When I get home, I have to eat dinner, shower, and wind down, and hope to be in the bed by 9pm in order to wake up at 5am. But you know what?

Movtivational Monday - 7/23/12

Alright, Ali....it's Motivational MONDAY! C'mon! LOL, I can't keep doing it on Tuesday, that defeats the purpose, haha.

*Sigh*...Oh well...

This has been so "me" lately. Yes, I'm talking about in regards to fitness, and weight loss, and eating right...but there's a lot of things that go into that. I hate it when my house gets "cluttered". First, it makes me not want to clean bc I don't know where to start. And second, it makes simple things (as easy as packing lunch) more difficult bc nothing's in the right spot.

So this weekend I decided to do something about it. These pics are NOT good quality, bc they were just for me to see the difference, but then I thought, I could put them on the blog because....well, just because! It's my blog after all, it's the one place I can do what I want - haha!

It's the hallway and pantry that have been bugging the CRAP out of me lately, so I decided to do something about it!

So here are some pics... in the first one, you'll notice on the shelf above the washer & dryer: a heating pad, laundry detergent, crumbled up reusable publix bags, random water bottles, the red string is the wire stuff that goes to the weed-eater (that we haven't used in at least a year, lol), and dog food, collars, & leashes (on the far left side where you can't see), and random other stuff...

On top of the washer and dryer is a crockpot that we don't use anymore (we upgraded), a box that needed to go to the street for trash day, pizza (Busted!), my lunchbox, more laundry detergent, some Febreeze, and a 2 liter. Can't even reach the buttons on the dryer, ugh! I'm ashamed I let it get like that, lol.

It's BEAUTIFUL now! On the shelf: a rarely-used dog crate that was in the hallway, a box for "yard stuff", dryer sheets, laundry detergent, and misc cleaning supplies.

On the washer/dryer: NOTHING! :^) I put a box labeled "dog food/collars/leashes" on the back of the dryer. We keep their bowls in there also, since they're only fed once a day.

And here's the pantry....it's such as eyesore! It's pretty organized, but because it's in the middle of the hallway, it's so UGLY!

Fyi, the baby gate is there to keep the pups out of the hallway. It allows us to be able to get out the door without them getting out of it first. That one you see looking at me in the pic? (The one that is a total mama's boy and was wondering what I was doing?) Yeah...he could race a greyhound....it's damn near impossible to catch him once he's loose. :^)

Solution: tension rod and a fabric shower curtain. $15 and I LOVE it!

Oh, and because we were talking about the pups, here are a couple of pictures to show them off, haha.

See? 60 lbs of total Mama's boy. I love that dog.

I love her too...she's just a tad more stand-off-ish, lol.

Ok, back to the mess...This was the right side of the hall. First, there's the tension rod, but that was just to put the shower curtain up with. Then there's a dry erase board that we use to tell each other if we've fed the dogs (to avoid double feedings), but Mike hung it up originally with blue sticky stuff, and it fell down (leaving the blue stuff on the wall with the dry erase markers). Then there's just random stuff...a grill pan, some board games, a  bag of dog food, a dog crate we never use, several trash bags that were going to the street the next day...

So pretty much EVERYTHING is gone from the hall now, and those trash bags are gone now too, and it's fabulous! Feels like there's SO much room in there now!

So anyway, that's part of what I did this weekend. Isn't it funny how we can just spend a little chunk of our time cleaning an area, and it just transforms it? Awesome.

Motivational Monday - 7/16/12

Yes. No one will believe it until YOU do.

xoxo,
Ali

Motivational Monday - 7/9/12

Well, ladies and gentleman, today is the Eve of my 30th birthday. And you know what? I'm lovin' it.

I feel more loved right now than I ever have in my WHOLE life. On Saturday, my friends threw me a birthday party with a bunch of my friends from GA & FL all together. It was more amazing than I could even begin to describe here. Here are a couple of photos...well, several photos. I couldn't narrow it down, lol.

me and Adrian

Wendy and Dailyn

me and Luc

me and Mike <3

me and my twinnie Amy!

all the kids

me and Christi

me, Kayla, and Amy

Mike and Andrew

EVERYBODY! I love this pic...

Ok, ok....enough of that. Motivational Monday - getting to it!

So, with my back still not being completely healed, I'm not able to work out. Although I'm hoping to be cleared to at least WALK by Thursday... But that doesn't mean that I can't eat right, and drink the water I need to, and get enough sleep, etc.

And as soon as I'm cleared - I will be taking it easy - but it's ON!!!

Seriously, body?! Get it together!!!

Well................
My back isn't any better. My 30th birthday is next Tuesday and my body is NOT cooperating! It's hard to say "Well, I don't FEEEEEEL 30!" when I currently have to shuffle instead of walk, lol. However, I'm going to the chiropractor today, so I'm hoping that by the time I actually TURN 30, I'll be better! :^)

On another note, I got paired up with my Foodie Penpal today, so that'll be like an extra birthday present, lol. I CAN'T WAIT! I contacted the girl I'm sending a package to, within 15 mins of getting her email address, haha. SO. MUCH. FUN!

I'm off for now, headed to the doc! Have a fabulous Thursday everyone!!!

xoxo
Ali

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Update as of 12:58pm:

Diagnosis from chiropractor: I have dislocated/sprained my left sacroiliac joint. It's the joint that connects the hip bone to the backbone (runs across the top of your buttcheek pretty much, lol, tmi...).

Anyway, she put these little electronic pulse patches on me, with a big ice pack, then she put an exercise ball on the table and had me lean over it, while she worked the CRAP out of the muscles around both ends of the joint (hurt SOOOO bad).

Then she put me back on the electronic thingys and the ice pad. Then she put bio-freeze on it, and gave me lots of samples to last the weekend.

She said my car trip to GA this weekend for my BIRTHDAY PARTY (YAYYYYYYY!) would be fine as long as I kept icing it on and off, and I have a follow-up appt on Monday at 5. But I'll tell ya, I've got some relief now. It still hurts, but I didn't expect a miracle! It was DEFINITELY worth the trip. :^)       

Motivational Monday - 7/2/12

Ok, so shoot me. My "Motivational Monday" is actually a "Too-Late Tuesday", lol. But see...I threw my back out Sunday morning. I tried telling my body "No, you will not be defined by this! You're stronger than a hurt back!"

Turns out.............. I was wrong. VERY wrong.

Never realized how true this was...

Thrown-out backs are nothing to mess with. I've been on muscle relaxers and hydrocodone for two days and the heating pad has become my best friend. Yesterday I had to call out from work bc I couldn't even get out of bed by myself. And honestly, I shouldn't even be here today. It's just, I have TONS of work to do, and we've already got tomorrow off since it's July 4th (which I could not be happier about right now!)

I can barely walk today, and sitting in this chair is excrutiating, and I just want to go home, but I'm trying not to complain. It's funny; this whole thing has really made me want to work out, and it's made me realize that we can't take for granted that we CAN work out. So get out there and DO it!!!

Motivational Monday - 6/25/12

So! Last week was really rough for me. Usually, I'm an open book, but this is a little too personal even for me. There are only a handful of people who know, and to those people, I just want to say thank you. I don't know how I would have made it through without you.

Thursday and Friday were spent in a fog...honestly, I wasn't eating much and about the only thing I could manage to get down was white bread and peanut butter, lol. Saturday and Sunday were actually pretty good - perfect days food wise, my mood was better, and I even spent 50 mins on the stationary bike on Sunday.

And now, I finally feel like my old self again, like I could conquer the world!!! :^) Man, funks can be so hard to come out of once you're there. But I just need to remember everything below!

Motivational Monday - 6/18/12

Honestly, this might be one of my favorite Pinterest finds EVER. I printed it and have it taped to my computer monitor at work. It's SO inspiring!

This time, I'm losing weight for GOOD. I will NOT gain it back, and I know that. I've figured out (most of) my flaws. The biggest one: I "secret-eat".

Hi, my name is Ali and I'm a closet eater.
"Hi, Ali"...
(lol)

I used to try and sneak food ALL the time...
I'd go pay for gas inside the store so I could get chips or cookies and my hubby would never know from the charge to our acct...
I'd use any cash I could get my hands on to buy fast food for breakfast, but then I'd still eat breakfast when I got to work also.

It's those things that I KNOW about myself now, and while I can't avoid the situation of having cash forever, I can control my actions now instead of letting my actions control ME. I also know that I NEED exercise in order to have consistant weight loss! And I'm getting better at it. For example:

I was woken up this morning when a water bug fell off the ceiling and onto my back with a "thud" while I was sleeping. Those of you who don't know what a water bug is, click here.... ***shudder***... If you live in FL, you know what they are - and no matter how much you spray your house for bugs, a few of those dang things will make it in - seriously - no matter what.

Anyway, I LEPT out of bed, screaming bloody murder "AHHHHHHH! OH MY GOD, GET UP, GET UP, GET UP!!!" to my hubby snoozing on the couch... He ran in there, checked the bed, sheets, pillows, everything, but to no avail. It was gone.

So we sat down on the bed - by the time my heartbeat returned to normal, it was 5:45am and there was no way I could go back to sleep at this point, but I don't have to leave the house till 7:10am. So I decided to go walk/jogging. I'm so insanely proud of myself! By 6:30 this morning, 310 cals were GONE. I might try waking up early every Mon, Wed, & Fri to work out. Why not?? I've got this!!! :^)       



Don't mind the bug in the after pic. He wanted to be in there too! LOL

$86,400

I saw this recently on an MFP forum (click here to view the original post) and had to post it here! It's such a great way of looking at things. I didn't write it myself, but I wanted to share with all of you!

Does any of this sound familiar?
I don't have time to exercise
I don't have time to walk the dog
I don't have time for me
I don't have time to cook real food
I go to McDonald's because I don't have time for anything else

Well imagine if I gave you $86,400, with the proviso, you MUST spend it ALL tomorrow, not ONE penny should be left by the day after. What would you do?

Besides scream "YIPPEE! I am rich"

You would probably sit down with a piece of paper, and plan out every last penny, then first thing tomorrow, you would get up, and start spending it.. right? You would possibly spend hours working out what you were going to spend it on, starting FIRST thing in the morning.

Well.. you have EXACTLY 86,400 seconds in a day. You will NEVER get those back, yet spend them without thinking about them. Instead of making excuses for not having time to do things.. PLAN. Get your family to plan their activity. Get a family calendar, and write on it... "MY WORKOUT TIME". Your health is worth the effort..so, stop making excuses!        

Motivational Monday - 6/11/12

Ok, people.... as a way to keep all of us on track, and also in an not-so-subtle attempt to get more subscribers (LOL), I've decided to start a weekly "Motivational Monday" post.

Because really.......who COULDN'T benefit from a little extra motivation on Mondays? haha

I looooooooooove this quote! It speaks right to me. And while I'm still not comfortable enough for the beach THIS summer... by NEXT summer, I want to ROCK a swimsuit.

Also, I love being covered in sweat at the gym. It's exhilerating!

I'm ready for it.

Let's do this thing.

FOOD penpals? I've got to be dreaming...

Somehow, I just stumbled upon this site where you can be a FOOD penpal!!! Click this link to find out how to sign up! It's only $15, but how freakin COOL!?

Holy cow! I've gone viral!

Well, ladies (and gents, if any see this).....it seems that I'm getting more traffic on my blog now. Which is friggin awesome, if I do say so myself!

I think a lot of people are traveling from Pinterest to my recipe blog, then clicking on the "Future Skinny Bitch Weight Loss Blog" tab that sends you over here. This section is way more intimate and personal than the recipe side, so be gentle! LOL

Since I'm getting so many new people stumbling across my site, I figured I'd do an intro. You can read back through old posts to see where I started and where I'm currently at with my weight loss, but I wanted you guys to know a bit about my personality too ('cause, ya know, it ain't all about looks...). So I asked a bunch of my friends (on the weight loss website I'm a member of, and in real life haha) how they would describe me. They made me laugh out loud at some of their responses. All their answers are below - the good, the bad, and the ugly!

Nicole said:
"You love quinoa! and I just now learned how to pronounce it because of your post :D"

Haha, actually, I've never tried quinoa,

but I want to! She thought this bc I

posted something about a guy on

The Bachelorette pronoucing it wrong, lol.

Amy said:
"Hmmmmm..... Let's see: Outgoing, hardworking, funny, compassionate, great cook, talented photographer, positive attitude"

This is so super-sweet.

I work my hardest

at being all those.

Amanda said:

"I know you are headstrong, determined, & a born leader. I know you love your husband and want the best for him. I know you are passionate about succeeding. I know you are so dedicated to beating this that you got a tattoo with your starting weight....then found out your scale went bad and have plans to correct the # on the tat! I know that you have strength I admire in that situation....if that had happened to me...I would be humiliated and soooo depressed. I know you are a hard worker and encourage those around you to do the same!!"

Wow, I love this. It's crazy how well

people can know you, who you've

never even met. I'm totally touched.

Charmaine said:
"One word: DETERMINED."

You're damn right I am.  :^)

Sarah #1 said:
"You are kind, generous, and brave. Above all else, you are real with yourself and those around you."

The one thing I will NEVER be is fake.

This is me. The real me.

That's all I've got to be! 

Judy said:
"Organized, Hard working, Great sense of humor, loves to blog, has recipes on Pinterest, dog lover, great motivater. Wow, I have lots of impressions for never having met you in person!!"

Haha, she does, for sure.

And it's awesome. 

Sarah #2 said:
"Wonderful friend, loves dogs, loves mushrooms, a twin, hard worker, motivator, inspiration, likes to accessorize."

Sarah and I have known each other for

a while now, and she loves broccoli as much

as I love mushrooms - which is a LOOOOT!

And yep, I have an identical twin sis who

I'd do anything for. Love ya, Ames!

Alicia said:
"I'm still learning...but this is what I've got so far! You love your pups, you enjoy trying out new recipes and sharing them with people. You enjoy doing photography and blogging :) You hate cooked carrots but will eat raw ones with peanut butter (ewww haha) and you have a known addiction to Hardee's that you will soon be into a 12 step program for :) Love ya hun!!"

This was my fave response, I think.

It literally had me laughing out loud!

Alicia's one of my closest friends

and biggest supporters nowadays.

And it's true... have you guys ever

had a butter biscuit from Hardee's?

If you haven't, don't. They're crazy

good, and yes, I'm addicted.

HAHA!

And to put a face with a name, this is me! Hope to see everybody back here, and subscribe please! (top right of the page)

And just for fun, here's ZOMBIE Ali! :^)



Who's to say I can't do it?

Been 18 days since my last post, and I've lost another 6 lbs. Down to 348 now, AND I'm 11th place in my Biggest Loser competition. I just wanted to be in the top half of 30 people, so I'm really excited about that...

I've been making our dinners for the week on Sundays now, so that it's as easy as heating up leftovers during the week. This has really been working well for us. :) Last week, I did baked chicken, roasted potatoes, and broccoli and cheese for 3 days, and then we had salads for the other 2 days. (Our weekends are "play it by ear" usually.) Today, I've spent all day making dinner stuff for this upcoming week: twice baked cauliflower with cheese and bacon, stuffed zucchini boats, broiled pork chops, roasted potatoes, and roasted mushrooms/peppers/onion. These recipes and more can be seen at my recipe blog site. (I haven't posted these recipes yet, but will sometime tonight, lol)

Sooooooooooo....... me and Destinee have changed our plan regarding the 5k we were doing. We were going to do the Color Run in December in Orlando, but we've since found out that Color Me Rad is actually coming to JACKSONVILLE! So YAYYYYY! Only thing is.....it's in September instead of December, so that's three less months I have to train.

I tried to walk the 3.2 miles on the treadmill last Friday, but I got to 2.7 before my foot started hurting really bad and I quit. :( I'll try again this Friday.

This pic was me after the 2.7 miles. I was exhausted.....I burned 646 calories, according to my heart rate monitor, which is the most I've EVER burned since starting to workout & count calories. It was invigorating, and I'm still paying for it (and today is Sunday, lol). My left foot and calf are aching, but it's kind of nice.

So after losing 3.8 lbs this week, I've figured out that if I lose 3 lbs a week every week until the 5k, I could potentially lose 57 lbs....which would put me at 291. I can't imagine how much easier the 5k will be then. :)

My workout schedule is:
Monday - C25K training
Tuesday - weight lifting
Wednesday - C25K training
Thursday - weight lifting
Friday - walking the whole 3.2 miles (5k) trying to better my time each week
Saturday - weight training (if there's time)
Sunday - rest day

I did it for one week. Who's to say I can't do it for 19? :)

Starting Over...

Well, not "really" starting over....but it feels like it.

All along, I've thought my starting weight was 353...I even got it tattooed on my wrist, as a reminder that I NEVER want to go back there. So as of last Saturday lost a total of 26 lbs (had lost 45ish and then gained some back) and my current weight was 327.

However, we knew that our scale was off. Even when it told me I was 299, I couldn't weigh on the Wii scale or the dr's scale, both of which had weight limits of 330. So obviously something was wrong, lol.

Anyway, one of my dear friends (Suz - my inspiration!!!) sent us a new scale. It's awesome! It says the same number every time you step on it, and more importantly - when I compared the # to a recent dr visit, it's RIGHT!!!!! However....it says 357.

so.

I'm 357.

*sigh*

This feels like starting over....it's NOT, bc I know I've lost and kept off 26 lbs so far, but it FEELS like it.

On the plus side, when I entered my new starting weight and current weight into MFP, it "upped" my calories from 1650 to 1930! That was a bit shocking at first, but I've found ways (through extra fruit and peanut butter mostly) to "up" my cals to meet my goal. So since my starting weight on Saturday for the Biggest Loser competition was 357, I stepped on the scale yesterday morning to see if my higher cals were working.

They are.

354! I lost 3 lbs in 3 days!

Now THAT's what I'm talking about. Time to keep this up! I love re-motivation!!!

"If you don't like starting over, then quit stopping."



My wrist tattoo...it means "never again" in Latin, and the CCCLIII is my starting weight in Roman Numerals. However, it says "353", haha. We're going to add three X's at the bottom which will make it CCCLXXXIII....383. My new starting weight! :)

Ready. For real. No, really. I'm ready!!!

I'm ready this time.

Ready to get this damn weight off and KEEP it off.

The Biggest Loser competition that I started starts tomorrow. We've got a group of 30 people (holy crap!) and all the starting weights have to be submitted by tomorrow. I've got my two friends and fellow competitors, Lauren and Brionna, helping me --- and I couldn't be more grateful!

Then it's on to 13 weekly weigh-in's and posting the standings for everyone to see. Second place is going to take home $216, and first place will get $324! That's way more money than our last round, and people are really excited! I think this time people will really FIGHT for those top spots. I can't wait...

It's funny, because in a weird way, I almost feel like I've already acheived my goal weight, and now I'm running competitions to help OTHER people acheive THEIRS. It doesn't make any sense. Also, I see people jogging, and I think "Yeah! I'm a jogger too!" But when me and Destinee attempt the 60 second jogging portion of C25K, I can barely make it through 30 secs... THIRTY SECONDS! In my head, I can run for 5 minutes. Why doesn't my body know that?!

I'm just going to start pushing hard...harder than hard, even. I'm going to push my own limits.

I'm sick of having my outside not match my inside. I'm ready to be healthy, ready to be able to take my dogs for jogs, ready to live a long life with my husband, ready to expand our family. Ready for so much...

I'm ready.

Let's do this...

It's about freakin' time I started an online diary, lol.

Let's do this thing...

We've all got it in us.

"You've got everything it takes,
but it will take everything you got!"