We'll start off with the cute stuff, lol. After years of wanting it done, I finally got my nose pierced!!! :) I could not love it more, and everyone says it suits me, which I agree with 100%, haha.
I suppose that's the 7 letter word that will shock some people. I left my husband on Oct 30th. I haven't filed yet, but probably will in the next month or two. It's been hard, but I know it's right. It's not at ALL that he's a bad guy...he's actually one of the best men I've ever known. I'm just not in love with him any more. I haven't been for a while, and I've stopped trying to feel something I don't. We tried, we both did...but sometimes you just have to move on. I didn't want to look back when I'm 40 and WISH I would've left when I was 30...
I'll be honest, a few people have criticized me for my decisions. And yes, there was one decision in particular that I'm not proud of; I strayed from my marriage just before I left. I should have waited until after I left. But I didn't, and that's something that only I should have to live with. The thing is... a lot of people would have just STAYED. And CHEATED.
I left. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, but it was the right decision. From people who know me well, I've been told that I have more courage than a lot of other people in that same situation, because others wouldn't have been brave enough to leave. So I feel good about my decision in the end.
Throughout the last 7 weeks, I've had my fair share of "finding out who your true friends are" moments. I've lost plenty due to the above mentioned indiscretion. I lost two of my best friends and god-kids because they're my ex's family. I knew that would probably happen, but it hurts sometimes anyway. But honestly, more than grieving over lost friends, I've really been celebrating those who have rallied around me. My friends are amazing, and more like family than any family I've ever known. Except my sisters, obviously... I love you two more than life itself and you know it! But those of you reading this know you who are, and I can't thank you enough for sticking by me.
So, let's get down to business: The last time I posted here was 9/17 and I weighed 345. Today, it's 12/24 and I weigh 324. So in just over 3 months, I've lost 21 lbs. It's funny how portion control just becomes a part of your life. Plus, with moving into my best friend's apartment, my routine has been CRAZY. :) But I've tried to keep my health in mind, and so far it's worked. Along with getting my body healthy, I just gotta keep my mind healthy and I'll be ok!
Throughout all of the struggles in the last few months, I've realized how truly blessed I am. Blessed to have a best friend who loves me enough to let me move in with her and her kids at the drop of a hat... Blessed to have a sister who is thrilled about me moving in with her in March... Blessed to finally have the opportunity to move back home to GA... Blessed that my future ex-husband is a good man, and has allowed this to be pretty civil so far... Blessed that he's letting me have my dog!...
I'm just blessed.
And I know it.
That's what's getting me through. <3